in the wee small hours of the morning...

i'm jealous of matilda. yes indeed. so jealous, i can't sleep at night. and i have no good reason folks. none. i'm jealous because as i lie awake at 2am, 3am, 4am - i look at her peaceful face and wish badly i was in such a pleasant slumber. so... since i'm destined to wake up at the crack of dawn... earlier than that even, i thought i'd let you peek inside my twisted mind so you too can know what it's like to be in my head... here's a short list of what i thought as i lie in bed one morning at 2am...

1) why do i drink so much water?
2) my clock says 2:12am, but what time is it REALLY?
3) i want a shrimp poboy. (for the record i had a really good one about a week ago and would kill for another one.)
4) what was that noise? (this spiraled into many thoughts about what that noise could have been. total time wasted on this thought = 10 min)
5) which shoes should i wear tomorrow?
6) need to stop drinking water after 9pm.
7) why would that woman put on mascara while driving?
8) okay what was THAT noise?
9) okay so it's 3:45am, if i fall asleep now i'll get about 45 min of sleep. (not even possible)
10) i need to figure out why my toilet isn't flushing well.
11) don't forget to throw out that milk.
12) add milk to the shopping list.

the list is too long to continue. why is it that we can't shut our brains off to sleep. i mean, we're tired... it's dark outside... we're lying in bed for goodness sake... sleep is guaranteed right? i mean, we are OWED that, right? well, apparently not for me... and i know i'm not alone. i mean, every night i see ads for ambien and lunesta - which i'm not against trying - so there must be a ton of non sleepers out there. maybe there's a support group. must look into that. =)