good friday

since it's good friday, i thought i'd reflect on this week and let you in on how my life has been going... interesting that's for sure.

the finalization of my newfound freedom continues to be a burden.. both financially and mentally. HIM (that's how i've decided to refer to my ex-husband - i'm sure there's an appropriate acronym i could form but that'll have to wait) has decided to nail me down to things we agreed to outside the courthouse... he's made certain that if i falter on his alimony payments - i have to pay a lump sum at one time... this pisses me off mainly because i thought we had made some headway into forming conversations - granted they were all thru email, but at least we were civil to each other.. then he goes and redeems himself the ass i always thought he was. moving on... =)

still haven't heard from my fix-everything-for-her-own-self friend at work. and you know what.. i'm finally sleeping thru the night. ever since i haven't talked to her - i have better sleep each night. it's amazing how a little clarity can make miracles happen.

i've decided to update my 2006 resolutions. the one where i do something for myself once a week.. yeah, well - make that every two weeks - cause i'm a mani/pedi girl now. you see i used to make fun of girls who'd religiously get their nails done and what not, but now - i have become one. and you know what... so what! it makes me feel good and it frankly completes my appearance. plus - it's summer and i have to have pretty toes!

i was told by a work friend that i am not the same person i was a year ago. and she meant it in a positive way. said i had lost alot of weight - which i have - i look different and i act different. those are both true statements. i've found out who i am i think. i love life now more than i ever have before. it's weird how all of a sudden you see things differently. it's also refreshing to discover yourself in the process.

i've also made an executive decision, a rather hard one sorta - but necessary i think. i have many items still at HIM's house. items that are mine - awarded to me by the judge hee hee - and i haven't made arrangements to pick them up yet. for quite a while actually. honestly, i don't want to even deal with him at all, but i know i have to get this stuff out. so my gal pal lyn told me i needed to get rid of everything i was 'awarded'. the clothes were a given - don't fit. but the decorative things - that was a little harder to agree to. but she's right. i need to get rid of them. those things were the old me, and she's 100% right. my dad agreed also. so, i've decided to get rid of them. may even make a few bucks off it. i've got nice stuff you know! =)