groovin'

sorta anyway...

i've been in an unshakeable funk for the last several days. to look at me, you'd not know it but i can feel it. i can't put my finger on what the root of the funk is exactly, otherwise i'd fix it or something, so i've just been trying to focus my energy on things that i can control and try to make positive changes in my everyday life.

i spend more silly time with matilda. that's nothing new though. we have LOTS of silly time - always have - but the difference now is that our silly time happens almost everyday, as opposed to her first day back with me after a weekend with HIM.

i think i need to spice up my life a little... i got some advice from my gal pal, lyn, about a multivitamin which she likes. so i bought some of my own and have started taking them. those things are HUGE. i got some 'firming' lotion from nivea. i figure if i can't lose the flab, FIRM IT UP! will it work? who knows. i figure if it doesn't, who cares, my skins moisturized regardless. and flabby skin ALWAYS looks better moisturized than it does dry. =)

i'm investigating options for colored contacts. now i know most of you think those look totally fake and yes, i do agree. but to shake things up i thought it would be fun. i haven't decided on a color yet but will check into at my upcoming eye doctor visit. i figure 3 pairs should be just fine. enough for me to try it out... see how i feel with a new eye color and to guage the response i receive from those around me. i'll keep you posted.

turkey day is just around the corner and i have decided that i am taking on the entire purpose of thanksgiving. i am thankful for what i have. i'm thankful for what i DON'T have. i need to not take things for granted anymore and i need to appreciate things in my life. after turkey day, i'm putting up the tree. i'm so anxious to do it now, but i'm afraid i'll get tired of it a week before Christmas. so i'm going to wait and put it up a few days after thanksgiving. it will be a fun task for matilda and me. perhaps it will get my creative juices flowing again. i need a project. and Christmas could be it!